×♥依赖！×♥!×♥!×♥!

我的依赖性比我自己想象中更强，我没用。
依赖，让人变得不能成长...
我，成了那个长不大的人
~

虽然自以为是也是成长的绊脚石，
但我庆幸，我没有那样！
总算，我的成长比那些人好一点。
~

朋友，都是因为我又想起你们了，
照顾着我，让我依赖
谢谢你们啊!

♥♥♥

morning :P

考完试过后，写了很多draft

每次想要update的时候

不是写到一半接不下去

就是不懂自己在些什么

真佩服自己在考试那段期间写部落还活跃过现在

~

昨天晚上5点才睡觉

很可怜咯 T.T

在FB居然和涵+雪聊天

亏来亏去

从原本就要睡不睡的累

变得超精神起来

关了电脑

就继续和涵sms

讨论她最爱的V!

...xD

其实都是在说要读什么科系啦
去哪里读啦之类的问题
~
涵的妈妈好好哦
一心担心着自己女儿的将来
陪她去看大学
~
没说我的妈妈不好
只能说天下的妈妈只是有时一样滴
~

假期很长，
在家很闷。

朋友都去工作，
我就天天睡觉+FB
闲到...
今天我总算早起了
是11点哦！
前三天都是2点，12点，12点
生活很糟吧
~
早起也是打算去剪头发
然后1点去mcd找朋友

--- 就这样啦，拜拜 ---

祝福

# click to play the song #

不要问
不要说
一切尽在不言中

这一刻

偎着烛光

让我们静静的渡过

莫挥手

莫回头

当我唱起这首歌

怕只怕

泪水轻轻的滑落

愿心中

永远留着我的笑容

伴你走过

每一个春夏秋冬

几许愁

几许忧

人生难免苦与痛

失去过

才能真正懂得

去珍惜和拥有

情难舍

人难留

今朝一别各西东

冷和热

点点滴滴在心头

伤离别

离别虽然在眼前

说再见

再见不会太遥远

若有缘

有缘就能期待明天

你和我重逢

在灿烂的季节

愿心中留着笑容
陪你渡过每个春夏秋冬

对不起，我的哭点很低
这篇，是我半夜刚看完电影又不想睡觉前写的
突然，想起在培训营结营前听的这首歌——『祝福』
歌词又喜又悲，
喜的是：期待和盼望和朋友们毕业/分开后那种再相遇的喜悦和机会
悲的是：离别总是让人不舍...

就这样，这首歌陪着我写着这一篇post
一边写一边哭
因为我突然想起很多朋友，那些在我17年内出现过的朋友
我的回忆很复杂，很多，很乱
时间在走，岁月在流失，能够存着的回忆又能有多少
我不知道，
只知道，自己太爱哭了

朋友，17年里的朋友们
就算你是好的还是坏的
到现在都已变的不重要了
只想说：很感谢你的出现，我认识你，你认识我
又或者是你知道我是谁，我又知道你是谁...
我都把你当成我的朋友
17年其实很短
随着人生阶段改变，人与人之间的关系也随之改变
如今，谁都要为了理想和心愿，各奔东西
分离，离别总是人生的一部分
朋友，想借这首歌
真心的祝福你（们），
只要我还有回忆，我都会记着你们
爱你们，想念你们...
希望你们也会一样，不要把我给忘了
因为，我真的会想念很想念你们
谢谢你们~♥♥♥

原来

想找回从前的快乐，

因为现在，不快乐。

我不爱寂寞，

但寂寞爱我。

人的改变，只有变好或变坏，

时间，是在于和谁在一起，而改变。

保重...

有你一个那么“勇敢”的朋友
我还真是不懂要说些什么

算了，好好照顾自己就对了
阿拉是不会保佑猪都不如的人！
保重~

有些事选择沉默是金是对的...第一次下来该学会了

Nasional Service

anyone who get NS for 2011 can check online or SMS on which batch & where the camp u r going !

i just check it , and the result is :

 

ok , i should be happy with the result . am I ?

everyone share their thought & feeling through facebook after their checking

asking where is the place here and there

haha ...

i guess i'll be in the 2nd batch , YYY?

ok...

1st , i'm not pai gia *rite ?* only pai gia those study in back class one will be arrange to 3rd batch .

2nd , i'm the third person who get NS in my family =.='' , the first & the second person are my eldest sister & my second sister :) *the NS computer system love my siblings's name izit ? i guess ~ lol* both of them are assigned to the 2nd batch , so i guess (i guess) i'm going to second batch too :]

3rd , do u believe in luck ? i must say the god treat me well . if they really assigned me to 3rd batch , i believe there must be something for me , just for me :) ... so , i believe in my luck & i guess my luck will bring me to the 2nd batch :)

haiyaaa!!! >.<!!! such thing is just depend to the goverment ok ?!


i had ask my mum , can i have my NS at Sabah or Sarawak ?


my mum scold me with :"crazy! go so far for what ?" ~ ok lo then ~
since NS is a must , no matter where u go , u r just going for the NS !
so why don't the goverment assigned me to Sabah or Sarawak ?
i can have free ride of airplane ! teehee :] ~ lol , such stupid ideal can only propose by me , izit ? wakaka~


i worry for my friends who are going to NS , it's true !
i mean friends like bee , zinc & she.enn ...
hahaha... even LEE ZI WEN !!! *zi wen !!! look here !!! lol*
bee & zinc are very weak , haha , can I say that =o=???
i think the total weight of both is NOT MORE THAN 60KG !!! ~
they are very very skinny ! bee is more serious la ~ i can lift up she E.A.S.Y.L.Y !


she.enn is like a princess , a princess who never do chore !
kakak do everything for her in her house
how can u call a girl like she to go NS ??? such a torment !!!
if she.enn is the princess , then ZI WEN is the prince ... *wakakakakaka!!!*
a prince who call command his sister to take rice for him in his house
*he say his sister is voulatary one , the truth ? i dunno la ... XDddddd*
a very rich boy lo ... he say :"NS only mah , so what ?"
so , lets see what is going the next ~

ya ! for khyli also !
she is a pretty girl la ...
sure many boys will chase after her in the camp !

ok la ... write until here enough >.<!!!
best wishes & good luck to all friends who going to the 1st batch of NS , on 2or3 Jan 2011 . must take care of yourself !!! really really take care !!! because you are going to experiences a journey which you never try before up to 3 months !!!

11月的最后一天

今天过得很烂>.<!!!

我一早就不好了...

今天是道德考试
我居然在1个小时内才把36个nilai背完
原因：
我昨晚9点就去睡觉了

半夜2点左右自然醒
睡醒是觉得很清醒啦
所以就放纵自己再睡一下
zzz........
结果就睡到一早的6.45了
所以道德没拿个A
绝对绝对是我的错!!!

别人对我的期望其实并不高
对于真正有读书的人是绝对接受得起，也挑战得起的
因为我没真正努力去读书
所以往往我得到的成果只是因为运气

爸爸对我的要求是世界上最便宜我的了
他说他只要3个A就够了
*他是不会对我姐说这些的>.<!!!*
当然我才不只要三个呢！
他要的A也不是随便的As
他要的A分别是3科语文课
国语，英语和华语
其实他的要求很简单
不是吗？？？
我自己也不知道了...

说说我的国语
我还真不知道政府会给我多少分
别说我的能力
因为凭我作答的国语能力
知道自己是不可能拿A的
所以，
政府......
我看你了......

再来英语
其实真的很烂
我再一次被present tense 和past tense 弄死
写novel的那一part
我完全想打死自己
我现在很害怕A会飞走了

华语嘛...
我的A念头应该是被我的同座给消灭了
哈哈~
其实我蛮看得起自己的*在政府压减水准的协助下*
我会觉得华语要拿A不是必然的吗
为什么还会害怕自己没有A啊？
华语，
因为马来人没考
所以你就惨了!!!
意思是
这科是百分百靠实力来拿A的一科！！！

算了算了，考试的这几天的很凸
因为会一直问自己到底在写什么
考试就是需要会写bullshit啊！
但我怎么连bullshit也写不好呢？？？

一天一天的过，就觉得是一科科的A在飞走。

飞啊飞，飞得很远很远......

明天又是一天不知该如何是好的一天......???

A Post Before SPM

changing my blog template again ~

nothing special to share here ~

so I JUST CHANGE MY BLOG TEMPLATE ... tee hee ... XD

ya , i'm kinda boring person ~ LOL

i have no mood to study la ...god ~

what I'm doing now is waiting the time pasing ...

i'm waiting for the midnight ,

i'm waiting the rush of study before my SPM

study is kinda boring ... haiz ...

my aunt keep on telling me to go study ,

stop on9 ,
since SPM is just once in a life time ,
and SPM is very important ,
the result is related to your further study & job & ......

haiz ... i just reply "oh...oh...oh...ya...ya...ya...i no...i no...i no..."

i cant concentrate to my study ,
or just say I NEVER DO REVISION AT HOME !

i got my PMR result is just because of ACCIDENTLY ，SUPRISINGLY , &  LUCK !

the reason Y is lazy , boring & lazy & lazzzzzzzy ...


..............


sorry , I'M NOT A GOOD GIRL .

p/s: pink is always THE B.E.S.T. !!! agree ? 


again , good luck to all SPM candidate ! my mum cook me the pig's brain 2nite 以营补营 \\\ :P

5 Years

5 years past , and today is the last day for form5 students .
5 years is not too long nor too short
i think everyone have the same thinking before :
when we are young , we perhaps that
how great is that if i were an adult ?
i can buy many many sweet as i like ,
i can drive and go ''gai gai'' all the time ,
i can work & earn a lot of $$$ to spend ,
and the most important thing is
i can decide what the small chidren did , but NOT control by any adult !

people are naturally inclined to opposite direction

people make use of all their senses to feel the happiness of lost & found

people only want to know how to appreciate after all they have lost

Parting

just make a call to shirley ,
who is going to leave m.sia to australia
she'll be back after half month
miss her a lot :) & her australia's souvenirs + hershey's chocolate yummy :)

today's is my mummy's b.day
sorry i didn't celebrate with her seriouly :(
i went for the farewell dinner of rukun negara society
and now i'm thinking :
how many time i can celebrate her b.day with her
dun think of bad thing
i'm going to leave soon ,
i mean after SPM ...
after that , i may go for work or further study *if i really get a good result , but anyway , just listen to the god*
i can't back home often right ?
so , i must appreciate and make use of all the remaining time that i have with my family
this is very important !
family can be everything of mine ! * since i don't have a bf ... lol ... but bf is also one my family ya ... haha ... =.='' *

just want to say :
appreciate every moment to stay with your family , your dearest , or any one who act as the very important role in your life , because life is short , time flies , no one can tell you what is going to happen at the next moment , and

"What we are today is a result of our own past actions, what we want to be in the future depends on our present actions. You decide who you will be."

“ 做人要向前看，谁说彩虹只有在雨后出现

再艰难的路上，也会到达转弯处遇见新的机遇  ”

SPM ! here I come !

it's time to rush for my future
who don't want to get good result in SPM ?
as my school teacher Ms Chan asked :
" what's wrong with you to have a good result , many As in your SPM ?"

so in these remaining days before i sit for my SPM
i gotta live with

no internet

no blogger

&

no FB !

what i can have is ...

a messy desk with biology text books , chemistry tuition note books , add math pass years papers ......... & coca-cola ! haha ... i should put some Brands also ! my mum already bought 1 dozen for me , but i only drank 1 bottle >.<! 

lastly , good luck to every SPM candidates *including me !*

   ^.^    :)     ^o^    :D     V!  　

god bless us ~ !

p/s : off everything related to computer ... bye bye to all thought-after-the-rain.blogspot.com visitors ... see you soon :) ... tata ~

 ^.^ 

aloha everybody ^^ guess what ???!!!

B.I.N.G.O ?! it's soft shell turtle ! haha ~ it suppose to be smallllll soft shell turtle =='' its size is same with the normal turtle (that u guy keep as pet d ~ ) ......... suck! i dun like to eat this ! my mum told me , when she was young , she use the turtle's shell as her rice bowl >.<" how memorable childhood is that ! ~ actually its taste not bad :P ~ but eat too much of "turtle" make me feel uncomfortable :( ... the feeling is weirDd ~



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mummy make the egg tart with added some chocolate powder into the pastry ... great taste !

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happy buf day to yee jie ^^

抱歉没有送你大礼，也没有陪你过生日，不过希望你天天开心，永远保持着那副傻样——是笑脸啦！和你一起爱学记99...*不过我还是很怀念以前的你啊T.T*...SPM加油咯！你可以的！



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hehehe...lalala...ddd...lululu...blahblahblah...Vvv... :)

xixi^^ i'm extremely happy today ~

yeah! gambateh ~

frenz :
to rush for our future , we gotta work hard , & do our best , but please don't overworked ~ smile always , be happy :) , & stress away ~

p/s: J
èmy life isReveryday because of u ^^ç